urgh. i feel so vex now!! and also lonely.. somehow juz feel like giving up everything. sturdies, hobbies, internet, slp, etc etc, practically EVERYTHING! juz wan to have fun the whole dae, look at the sky whenever i feel like. travelling ard the world wif a bike, juz keep peddling and peddling to a place where there is nothing but juz me alone with the gurl i like. build a house using woods.. grow crops and self-independent. i dont mind!! juz giv mi a piece of land and some seeds. hahaz. i want to let go of my responsibility, my 'given' purpose of living. yet i noe that i cant do it. No, is more like i shouldnt do it. the future is unknown. what if i giv up on mi sturdies, the future will seem even bleaker(if there such a word). i havent been playing this few days.. going out to hav fun the whole dae. NO! not even one dae i have think nothing abt homework. everydae is like mugging mugging mugging. spend the 1st week mugging. 2nd week lectures, 3rd mugging. and now is coming to the fourth week. i still mugging!!! i wanna juz giv up!!! but i cant, shouldnt, unable!! urgh.. i so stress up. juz feeling to get a girlfrien and juz stay wif her, at least there a motivation ard. yet, i noe that it will be unfair and is not a gf at all.. the wrong beginning and the wrong purpose... AH!! *scratch head*
kkx.. i been gumbling a lot now and then.. mi mood is so darn mess up.. i cant think straight.. not as in 'dirty' okay.. juz couldnt get right thru. (calm down calm down)

okay. todae went out to je lib to sturdi wif junhui and javier. WOKE UP AT 830! okay. is insane.. but then i snooze mi hp till 930. rush out and manage to get to je at 10am! urgh... mi eye is swollen.. alright.. i not feeling tt well these few days.. got flu in the morning, sore eyes every night, and mi skin is drying up due to the weather, sharp pain in mi heart a few times, sensitive teeth juz 'pop' up. urgh.. mugging till 3am almost everydae.. playing games too though.. shh. hahaz. *mess up emotions*. u can juz imagine mi crying and laughing at the same time. ZzZz

went to watch kungfu panda after sturding. ITS SO-NOT worth it. i will rate it 1/5. its so kiddish. alright.. not trying to sound mature here. but its watching a retard show. the jokes... almost all use before.. stupid plot.. OAHfioaehioehfoih... dont talk abt it. and now, i own junhui 10 bucks. ZZZZZZZZZZ. tmr going to sturdi wif javier and junhui again. this time i muz complete mi maths!!! *faint* there still hormones fer bio and organic fer chem. BLEHX! shoot mi. spend five days to read bio. ITS FREAKING HUGE TOPICS! pure memorising.. pure vomitting... pure wasting of time.. and pure CRAP! sighx. i should hav taken physics. wadever, i make a choice and shouldnt look back on it. accept it graciously and get on wif life. WADEVER!

mood: SUX

posted - 1:49 AM