12.00am sharp according to my watch.. hahaz.. hmz..still wide awake.. unable to fall asleep.. this tuesdae is the training le.. then thursdae.. been invited to go to escape theme park wif william,jesslyn and chuxian.. but then turn down the invitation.. cause i not much monei.. cause left wif $12 onli.. maybe i go ask mi mother fer some if she agrees to loan mi some monei 1st..hahaz.. stupid scholarship.. hrumph.. send so long de.. juz wish i receive earlier.. and 500 dollars i could use like mad.. hmz.. ask weiting to help mi buy adidas cap.. dont think he will bother to think abt it.. hahaz.. maybe he forget.. most probably.. and yepz.. he is in Shanghai by now..i think.. kz.. lets tok abt something..

hmz.. do bois always trying to act strong in front of gurls.. or in other wordz... do they always like to gain attention frm gurls.. kind of stupid doh.. but then c alot of bois do that.. and when they do tt.. kind of silly.. as though they were making a fool out of themselves.. but then some acheive their aim.. and did not make a fool.. hmz.. this year c mani bois in mi class do that.. mi juz sit aside.. watching them.. hahaz.. not offending mi class the bois lar.. but then they do.. sometimes i wonder izzit stores in every bois genes? mi also has the urge lar... but nowadays.. or should be this year.. i controlled myself.. hahaz.. maybe last year i too kidda behave like tt i think.. dont noe.. but then frm nxt year onwards.. i think i juz behave wat i do in P6.. hahaz.. extremely quiet.. and do not.. or i think nv tok to gurls.. juz nodded mi head.. or ignored them.. hope nxt year i can do this wae.. then i am not tt arrogant like now.. it juz that i been misguide larhz..

There has been a good friend of mine.. hu is quite arrogant but abled to acheive great results.. then i begin to think that if i hav his "arrogant" atitude.. will i able to acheive good results like him? so... in sec 1.. i try out.. surprisingly.. i did acheive better results than in P6.. and teachers do not dislike mi when i was p6.. though there was a teacher in p6 favour mi and the other two of my gd friendz.. hahaz.. yepz.. then sec 1.. lead quite a wonderful life.. it would be a perfect life.. if my parents stop criticising my school.. and urge mi to transfer out.. haiz.... i tok to my family abt it on saturdae.. which is my father's birthdae.. saeing that i wanna transfer back to Yusof Isahk.. immediately response frm mi father," That school will not bring good future in u.. why still bother to think abt it"[ he says in chinese].. haiz.. then mi sister says," u want ur CCA points to gone again arz".. then mi mother," the students there are all bad students, u still wan to go there!" [says in chinese too].. haiz.. they didnt even understand mi.. if the pple there are bad.. why i still bother to request a transfer.. somemore.. they nv been wif mi class fer one year... and nv understand their atitude.. the teachers there.. oh yar.. i remember mi mother saeing that the teachers are inexperience.. Halloz.. if they are inexperienced.. they wont be unable to get chosen by the MOE.. haiz.. shouldnt have mention abt CTSS when i pass by that school when mi and my father was passing by.. if not, i will not get into CTSS.. haiz... indeed.. i not happi to be in CTSS.. although some friendz i wish to be friendz ferever.. but then.. together wif the whole class.. they did not bring much joy or happiness to mi.. most of the teachers hatez the class.. and often had to hear scoldings frm the teachers.. and i always feel "out" when i wif the class.. is like they often tok abt sports.. which i dont usually watch or even interested at all.. and they even drink beer.. -.-!.. wine.. gambled.. moreover.. students cant even go to the library during recess.. my happiness in this school.. is been decreasing steadily.. i will not be surprise if it hits "0%".. is like.. i lost interest in going to that school.. the onli pple i find that was quite like my YISS friendz.. is zhenlin, yangyou, zhenliang, john, jialiang.. i do not noe whether nicholas was like my YISS friendz..[but still i get along fine wif him].. these five of them resembled most of their characters.. they were like in the between of "want to sturdi" but not so engrossed in it.. though they tok abt sports like NBA or FIFA CUP.. but then.. they did not overdone it.. they do not tok so much abt it.. warm and friendly.. the memory of being wif my YISS friendz.. are much clearer than being in CTSS.. CTSS is like being fogged wif mist.. and i onli remember those wish made mi sad, angry, and feel "out"..

Remembered that time when i was in YISS... before tests.. i always been wif daniel, ivan, clement, yuan sen, sykuri, yeong quan to the library.. sometimes we r like studying seriously.. but most of the times... we keep toking.. and even play chess.. hahaz.. then i was like making a fool in front of syukri when playing chess.. keep making awkward soundz.. but then after the tests.. the class suddenly gone mad... hahaz.. our way of relaxing.. most of the chinese races boys go to the basketball court to play basketball.. do not noe abt the malays.. think they go walk around the school wif the other gurls.. then play basketball until veri veri sweaty.. as though our shirt are transparent.. hahaz.. then we will help each other out.. examples.. lend monei.. or treat them to a drink.. or wait fer friendz when they were waiting fer teacher.. is like.. we are able to understand each other.. though last year.. i always wan to sit alone.. but then after being in CTSS.. i find that staying in YISS better.. much more contented.. and able to fit in.. still remembered clement helping mi out when our class played rubby.. though like they were going to fight.. but then after the PE.. everything was normal.. then everytime after school.. daniel and mi will be like running towards the bus-stop hoping to catch up wif clement.. or hoping to be able to catch up wif the bus... cause we record the time when will bus 106 or 77 will be coming.. and most of the time.. they will come at tt time.. so it brought back mani memories in mi.. i could clearly remember every moment of it.. being wif them is like i begin to live in this world.. and every morning before assembly.. we will sit along the staircase.. can said that nobodi except 1E1 bois are accepted to sit at that staircase.. is like our class has been assigned to sit there.. hahaz.. so we will sit down there.. either chatting.. or coping pple homeworkz.. hahaz.. even i do that.. or lend mi homework to let someone copi.. though wif dont have class t-shirt or cheers.. we are like been bonded somewae or another.. last year.. i dont think the bois are quite in terms wif the gurls.. do not noe abt this year.. think they are good terms le... so... tis is my part of my likings to YISS...

Hope i do not offend anione.. if i do, i apologised.. juz that i been feeling this wae.. i think i noe wat i going to wish fer my birthdae le... this year wish is kidda stupid.. though u may find it stupid fer mi... or seems tt mi character is not this sort.. my this year wish is that everyone will be happi and all the sadness frm everyone will be brought to mi.. also wish i have gd results too larhz.. so is like making three wishes.. think the 2nd wish is granted to mi... though part of it... dont think everyone is happi now.. onli some of them.. so this is wat i wish fer this year... nxt year.. i will tell u on december wat i wish fer nxt year.. hahaz.. kz le.. ending mi complaints and doubts here.. tata's.. hope u wont be irritated or feel bored reading this.. take mi almost 1hr to write this.. cause now is 12.53 lez


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